Outside, that is. I never had the courage to buy food and sit ANYWHERE alone. I had no courage whatsoever to even order food for a long time. A year ago, ordering food would have been like squeezing blood from a stone. At one point I couldn't even take public transport to go for my lectures. SBB had to accompany me in a cab for my lecture. It was that bad, but look how far along I have come. Praying helps, it helps a lot. Cuz the courage that God gives you starts from within, and it is something nobody can give you. It feels liberating, to enjoy some time and achieve something that was once a dream. I don't feel the judgemental stares of people, not today. The run was good in the morning, and my motto was: if you don't want to spend the day crying, get out there and run. But alas I failed and I was upset that I had failed. Quote SBB: you are crying that you're crying. Lol let me show you a game...
So yay to me. All thanks to God.
My food/dinner. I can't even finish the milk hehe but that's because I'm stuffed with sea coconut/grass jelly hehe.
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