girl, Em

i go and help others, because i want to be needed, i want somebody to want me to be there for them, to chat with them, to check their phone often to see if ive texted back. 

but i dont feel that and its so painful

it hurts so bad

i cry

and i cry

and i cry some more

each time i cry you shout at me to stop it

you always give me an excuse to not comfort me, because you're tired and you dont WANT TO DO THIS.