girl, Em

why i must tell you so much bout myself????
dont need what,
because youll take that information and turn it against me, and then say eh why dont you do this or that, if you dont want people giving you instructions or like suggesting alternatives then dont tell them how you feel or anything else

give vague answers so that people won't know how you feel, and stuff like that.
i can be a very real person, but then if you break my trust, sorry its hard for me to let you in ever again.

and i dont want to host anything in your house, because i dont want you to say that you paid for this and that and then we never pay you.

dont want. dont need an extra thing other than church. i dont want the complication and i certainly dont want the attention. because too troublesome i rather avoid the talk and save the money and enjoy it on my own, rather than leave a mess behind. lesson learned: if you dont want people to say anything about you, then dont show up or say anything so they won't have anything to remember you by. you can give work suggestions but as a professional, personal things are off-limits.