interview/presentation? sort of

okay so this is how it went:

first i went there, then i was presenting to not the director but the entire team, and i was like i WASNT prepared for this, but I'm supposed to be prepared for almost anything actually. 

then the director didn't come, and then i was like okay.. so are we waiting for anyone else?

it seemed like the RA didn't have much to say, cuz the prof didn't ask him anything at all, which was quite sad, because either he had nothing to add, or that he wasn't very good in this field? or not really interested. then the rp student kept quiet, because she was just an rp student, and then the molec girl asked me quite a couple of questions, like what PCR i used and stuff like that, and they said that the first topic could hold the weight of a PHD topic, meaning it was large enough, and they wanted me to come up with a research proposal because i cannot leave it until too late. like it takes time for you to do and you need time to research the methods, and so you cannot write the proposal now, but you can do it later. 

so he said that i should go plan and think about it, to use cheaper methods, just in case we cannot sequence and stuff like that- 

so its something that i would be thinking about myself, and then refining and refining, which is good because i dont have to work off what people give me and then try to understand it. so thank God for that, i never actually had to like put in effort to research anything much. 

and then he said something like: oh if molec girl likes you and jerome doesn't have any questions then we are good to go hahahaha

alrightttttyyyy then...

so i have to just start working on the topic first, then slowly build up, finding a local species that would make the research special and praying hard few people are doing what i do :D because if you do a local species, with a back up then nobody can snatch that away from you!! but anyhow its God that keeps things in place and things in control. :D

and also prof said like unless heaven suddenly drops money to him this month then he will have funding for my research like to use equipment and stuff, and i know if God had called me to this place, then He will provide everything, and what is money to God? 

It is really tough sticking to doing the right thing, because i always remember what God can take away from me, because He is angry with me, and i dont want God to be angry with me because is it not a nice feeling at ALL. 

so when God is happy with you, you can feel it and at this time I need to pray that I dont believe in my own strength, and always when you think you stand, take heed lest you fall.