today is one of the days where......
i shouldn't be complaining because is not that life is not good to me or what, not that I'm struggling with a disease that i cannot overcome,
not that i cannot pay rent, or my bills, or anything like that,
not like I'm a refugee somewhere and trying to start over again.
but its a stupid first world problem when you feel that its one of your down days,
where you feel that it would be great to just live as you wish? but the thing is that you dont really have any strong wishes or wants right now,
and all that you have today as your task is to complete one file of things, to take your one hour lunch, and then you aim for 5pm, then you relax a little, then you go back to find the muffy.
where is your drive? where is your perseverance? where is your will to be efficient and productive? where is it?
why is it that you keep finding excuses for yourself, nowadays you keep thinking oh i dont really talk to anyone much during the day and then its like that, life moves on, but then its really what God wants for you in your life, not really your call at the end of the day.
its 9:40am here, and I'm finding it very hard to start work, dont feel like at all, but i have to, cannot procrastinate, and cannot be slow, and i must be a good testimony, and since everyone is busy thats why we have the weekends right?
come to think of it, are you just bored? idk because the sounds of it is that you're bored and you can't wait to do something exciting, but what happens if now there's nothing exciting to do? just focus on what you can do that is exciting in the future
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