When things change I feel like the whole world is spinning out of control. Sitting here typing this I'm feeling like this is happening. When people can't spend time with me on a friday night, and i have to go home after giving tuition, i feel like all's going wrong. Then i feel so upset, emotional and that the feeling of sadness threatens to choke me. I hate this feeling. I can't study, can't do anything but sit there and cry till all's better, but whether things actually get better depends on my frame and state of mind. I can do this, i can be strong. It's wearing off, i can feel it, my serotonin levels are dropping and i fear this feeling of emptiness and uncertainty. It's definitely not how you will feel if you are in heaven, cuz up there everything is fine. Everything is good.
But God made me, and He will heal me.
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