Reflections about life

Was having tuition this morning and I randomly asked my tuition kid how she felt when she shared a room with all her family members. She said it's squeezy but she's used to it. That used to be my answer a couple of years back, and it isn't my answer anymore. Well I guess you can be used to people whom you can trust, and know that they won't hurt you. And so this was sparked off cuz I wanted to go to the choir practice place earlier but guess what? Everyone has their own things to do and I'm left to hang around in the library. I guess doing it more often would make it seem like it's second nature, but it's hard after years of indoctrination to believe that hanging around in the library alone to wait for your next scheduled event is normal. 

I chose to be with you, I chose this life, I chose this. And everything else that comes with it, the pain, the hurt, the displacement. Nobody is to blame. I chose this.