I have even better, ever slightly, though regressing into the dark pits of my stupid emotion once in awhile. Saturday was a fallout day for me with myself, I didn't control my feelings enough and kicked up a fuss again. Then I realised that I have been living on a happy scale of 10- being the maximum for a couple of weeks. I've always been worried when I wake up that not going to feel like a 10. I spoke to SBB about this and he said nobody normal is ever like that. It's true, because nobody wakes up feeling like you're going to conquer the world, to feel like hugging and kissing everyone, like the world is perfect. So I realised I'm coming off my high, unfortunately. But this verse encouraged me today,
Genesis 18:14-"is anything too hard for the Lord?". Nope, nothing is. God can and will kill the hydra living in me. One day the root of it will be gone, and I will be completely healed.
I've never understood suffering, until today.
The post high from Prozac is extremely awesome. I've got no words for this efficiency. It's been two mornings since I took it and I've feel like an 8 today. It's like an oasis in the desert.
I have to press on (: with Gods strength.
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