Wednesday, September 3, 2014

To the creep that never took no for an answer

We started out as acquaintances and because people moved on, graduated, we were left as the only honours students in the lab. I knew you since year 3, while I was doing my research project. You were doing another project, but because I thought you were nice, so I decided to reciprocate and be your friend. So we moved to becoming friends, talked a little about school, family, the future. I thought you knew you were friend-zoned. 
After a month of deliberation when you said you were leaving for other labs, you decided to come back and stay. Partly because your grades could make it and partly because of other reasons. You told me you were allergic to 100 things- eggs, plaster dust, dust from the air, peanuts- almost anything. I honestly felt sorry for you, and thought maybe i could be a friend and speak to those who wanted company. I was wrong. 

Things progressed quickly, in the wrong direction, when you first starting showing like you cared. You obviously know i have a boyfriend and we even went home together sometimes. When i said i was going to Thailand and you knew he was coming you told me to save the money instead- like it was any of your business. What was that jaded, sarcastic tone for? You told me "it's not like i have a girlfriend" once to my face and what could i have done about it? You openly scratch your itchy back in the lab, revealing to the whole world how itchy and red your back is. It is then no wonder why. 
I came back from thailand, and you asked me how it was, even trying to be nice about it, saying you were happy i had a good time. 

Then school started. And things got a lot creepier from then on. I was alone with you in the shaker room and you turned and told me " want to grab a couple of mods together? What mods are you doing? It would be nice to have someone to take mods with, after soloing for the past few years." i merely gave you a vague answer and walked away. Was that not enough a hint? So i thought the module bidding sessions were over. They were, officially. But then you came up to me and asked what mods i did. And i told you, honestly. But then you told me you had one slot empty, and you did that on purpose. I was shocked, knowing you left that module slot blank so you could take one module with me. 

Then you touched me, beneath my collarbone, in an attempt to say hi. I was utterly taken aback, but due to the huge crowd of people i didn't say anything. I should have done something, anything to stop you there and then, but i was too cowardly. I hated you after that, and i never wanted to see you again. 

But guess what? You were relentless, jumping at almost every opportunity to help me, even when i said i was fine. The final straw came when you messed up my table after i found you sitting there when i wasn't around. Enough was enough. I told you, in front of everyone else to leave me alone. 

Today things aren't very different. I say hi to you out of courtesy, and you still ask me how i am doing, like it's your right to be concerned for me. I don't know how things will play out in the future. 
Just stay away from me. 

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