girl, Em

feeling very frustrated cuz like have to lug 1000 things over to bake and stuff but then this mother keeps saying that they're not gonna to help me and stuff and says ask her to buy instead like she's fed up I'm going over to bake and I don't wna spend time with her like duh so much negativity and I hate to absorb any more of it. 

but then I'm just lugging only then when I reach there I just need to bake the stuff 

my frustration comes from being afraid that I cannot produce the thing and it fails and I would just be like oh my. 

cuz first time baking for YAF plus muffy isn't even there to help me cuz of that racial harmony thing 

I think I talked about it like 10 times already. like even if I bake, who is going to help me bring there????? 

does any one even look remotely free? 

glad that I'm even on my way there. it needs to go in the oven by 3 pm, latest 330pm.