girl, Em

trying very hard not to let the emotions get to me, not to be sobbing like a fool, because i know it;s there and it's a demon that i need to fight. 

oh God how can i do this, how can i live this life without Your help, the meds are messing with my brain and i can't think straight but at least i dont feel the drag and the unhappiness everyday. 

i was getting used to feeling normal and they called me a drug addict. 

i am not. 

but my father says that basically I'm like a drunkard, complaining that life isn't good enough for me, then drinking. 

for me is taking meds. 

but why is it the same? what's different?

just feel so shaky, just feel like sleeping.